frances
HI! I know you are not doing that well but even thought I don't know you I really understand what you are going thru.I have a nephew who had the same thing after awhile he could'nt work anymore and he was a postman, he went thru HELL,but he gat lucky after a couple of years he needed a bonemarrow and little did he know that his half sister was a100% match and he made It he had one year to live he did not give up so don't if you need some one to talk to I'm here I wish I could help .we can talk whenever you wnt to,EMail me, about s.s. or disability i don't know but you can call them and find out. god bles you don't ever feel tha you are alone. frances