Flaminia Zeman
Janne, Don't allow anyone to "make" you feel any way you don't want to. Your feelings are yours to choose. Frankly, ( I don't mean to insult your choice of friends here), your friends behavior doesn't coincide with my definition of friendship. Do some volunteering, if you can afford it join a self esteem workshop. You can find a significant other with herpes. My friend did, and got married too. Her husband knew about the herpes. he hasn't gotten it from her. they are cautious. In order to find a significant other you have to first love your self enough to not let others diminish you. You have to be your own significant 'non-other'. Treat yourself as you would treat a valued friend. Maybe your "friend's"constant morale battering is something you should avoid. Remember, the past is gone, no need for guilt, it's a useless emotion. We've all made choices we regret, but compassion begins within.