Tammy, I lost my father when I was 12. He died suddenly in his sleep of a massive heart attack. Your feelings are very normal and I know how hard it is. If you are looking for a support group check with your school guidence counsler or is you are affiliated with a church you might want to check there. Please make sure that you find someone to talk with. I know what a hard time this must be for you. If you need to chat I am alway available. My e-mail is Grometsmom0417@cs.com. I am origianlly from the southern california area and I would be more than happy to help you find someone to talk with. I do have a friend there who is a psychologist. Take care of yourself and trust in your family. They will always be there for you. I hope to hear from you.