I have no answers for you about your mothers condition, but I can tell you that talking really helps with the pain. I have not lost my parents but I have lost a lot of people very close to me. My suggestion is talk to someone, cry, and pray. I would be willing to listen if you need a friend. Turn to those who are close to you, they really don't know what to do to help, they don't know if they should talk about your mother or just pretend it never happened. People are so unsure when it comes to a death, but I will tell you that you will feel better in time. That pain will never really go away but in time will become more tolerable.