Brave Girl
You are so smart and brave to recognize that you may have a problem! I had the same thing! I always felt that I looked "fat." Today, I can't believe that I felt that way. When I look at myself today, I know that I was just unhappy and not fat AT ALL. There is so much pressure from magazines and TV to look like a too-thin, unhealthy model! (Most models either smoke or do drugs to keep themselves so thin! And if you have ever heard an interview with one of them, they sound so DUMB.) I would suggest that you talk to someone RIGHT AWAY. Look up "Eating Disorders" on line to get more information, talk to your school counselor for a referral to someone who can help you. If money is a problem, there are many therapists who will help you for free. Try calling the nearest university for a referral. Try to find SOMEONE to HELP you before your health is jeopardized. There is so much pressure on girls your age these days! Try to realize that everyone you know is struggling with life (even if it doesn't seem like it) and that you aren't alone! E-mail me if you want to talk. Love, J.