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I related to your message..I either feel like I wear my heart on my sleeve or am constantly protecting to keep friends and family from knowing how vulnerable I am. I have problems with trust and am now having problems in second marriage, and realize that it's not them(even though it feels like it) it's me, my son says please mom, don't ruin this. I take neglect, being ignored and ignored, I keep trying trying working working and I feel like I'm in the movie "groundhog day" I wake up each day and it's always the same and I'm trapped. I've done therapy, and left when told I had personality disorder, trying to go back, I am constantly monitoring my behavior to the point I don't say the things I need to, because of protecting others and no one protects me. I am open to talking to others who struggle with this and are trying to improve and to those who live with it.