First and foremost Maggie, you will survive! You need to see a psychiatrist who can prescribe medication as well as provide you the therapy you need to get well mentally. Do not be embarrassed to ask for the help you need to get through this tough time. There are a lot of resources, financially and emotionally in your community. You obviously can get on the web so start doing your homework. I wish you the best. Many people are diagnosed with depression every day and amny others sought the help they needed and survived this "bump in the road".