Yikes....you need to check with your insurance company and see if they cover any type of counseling. You need to take care of your self. By the way, I had a ruptured brain aneurysm in Novemebr of 1998, and 2 brain surgeries later, I am doing fine, however, I, too went through some tough times. While I never took drugs or had weapons, I too was angry at the world. With the help of some very caring doctors I am doing much better. Good luck.