Etienne
Dear friend, you have a disease in your emotion, now a days this is very comum (then years ago). The fisrt step you HAVE TO frequent a psyquiatrist and terapy, some medications have been showing big improvments in simptons, like OLANZAPINE, (ZIPREXA) but it is expensive, you probably are takink haloperidol (HALDOL), and, for schizafrenia it is the largest med tanking around the word with all its advantages, visit your doctor and talk about olanzapine, some contries the government pay the treatment.