Jennifer-I know exactly how you feel. I was diagnosed with displasia. I had the LEEP done. The LEEP came back fine. 6 months later I had my repeat pap, low grade dysplasia, which the dr. said we would monitor. Last week I had my 6 month repeat pap, only now they say ASCII, which I thought was a computer language, and I am uncertain what ASCII means, and now I have to go in for a colposcopy and possible biopsy. I am very upset, as I too am worried that my cervix will not be strong enough to support a pregnancy. Let me know how things turn out. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and ask you do the same for me.