Hi Cat, I'm sorry your having a hard time of it. I know what your going through. I have epilepsy, I have a disease in my legs that they can't find whats wrong and walk in pain all the time. I have had 2 heart attacks, 8 angioplasty's, going on nine in a couple of weeks. I have 5 stents in my heart, going on 6 in a couple of weeks. I have wanted by pass for the longest time but they just won't do it nor give me a good reason not to. Been on S.S.D.I. for 6 years now. I have a good ear so you need to talk drop me a line.