Hi! I have a 6 year old boy. He was diagnosed with autism when he was 3. Although he does speak, it's not the same as other children. My heart also aches every day. I don't know where you live, but there is a tremendous amount of help out there. I have attended conferences re autism around the country looking for answers. Maybe I can help direct you to someone who might be able to help. If you want to give me a bit more detail, I can try to help. I am not a religious pereson, but someone once told me, that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. I know there are days when you feel like you can't breathe, but there is a brighter side. Sometimes it just feels like darkness. We just have to find someone to help you open a curtain. Hope I can help.